Patiently Waiting

It has been months since I have posted anything. That is because I stopped asking my Lord for help. I stopped listening for his answers. I became impatient and so much like the sullen teenager who does not get their way. My world was crumbling and I felt lost and alone, abandoned if you will. Life seemed to dragging me along until I could no longer keep up.

After being reminded by a very unlikely source that my life was so hellish because I was no longer patiently waiting for God's answer. I was forging ahead and trying to make things happen on my own. He has a plan for me but I was unwilling to wait for Him to reveal it to me. My discontentment was beginning to show in my work and my relationships. I was suffering and those around me were starting to suffer as well.

The Lord brought me to my knees and I cried out in anguish because I was no longer fully trusting in Him. I basically spit on Him and stomped on His love. I went to Him in prayer and offered my heart to Him. I listened quietly and patiently, then I wept when I heard the faintest whisper in my soul. He filled me with peace and embraced me with love. I have not slept so soundly as I did last night after hearing Him reassure me.

This morning I awoke to a feather-light touch upon my cheek and a lightness in my heart. It was my Lord encouraging me to arise and continue my work for Him. Although it is going to take a while for me to get used to laying all my troubles and worries at the foot of the cross again, I know that I have a mighty Father who is waiting to catch me when I stumble again. Life is complicated, at least that is what many people say. For me, it is only complicated when I shut Him out and refuse to listen to His wisdom and feel His love.