1 Chronicles 16:11

I have felt let down and uneasy for several weeks. It was more of restlessness within my soul that kept me on edge and looking over my shoulder. There have been so many odd things happening lately and I had not realized until it was almost too late that Satan was whispering in my ear more and more. I won’t say that God was silent during these past weeks, but I think He was waiting.

I walked a thin line between hating God and wanting Him in my life. Things at home have been super stressful with the passing of a beloved family member and the worry about the elderly spouse left behind. As the family focused on their grief, God was pushed further away. It was not until I sat quietly at my desk that I asked the all important question: “Are you there Lord?”

I sat quietly for several minutes and then I seemed to feel a calming within my heart and heard the faintest whisper: “Here I am.” I remember smiling and then bowing my head and sobbing!

After my crying fit was over, I began praising Him and thanking Him for not abandoning me! It was then that I realized that some of my choices over the past few months had not been driven by my love of God or my desire to do His work.

I now have one of my favorite verses written on sticky notes around the house, in my office and in my car…”Seek the LORD and His strength; Seek His face continually” (1 Chronicles 16:11).

As I cling to these words, I am reminded that even though Satan is being a little louder than usual and very obnoxious, my God will never forsake me and that He will lend me strength when I need it most!